On decision making
by Roy via an international email forum
"To the senses it is always true that the
sun moves round the earth; this is false to the reason. To the reason
it is always true that the earth moves round
the sun; this
is false to the supreme vision. Neither earth moves nor sun; there
is only a change in the relation of sun-consciousness & earth-consciousness."
A friend once remarked, while observing the way Aurovilians
seem to stretch the process of decision making to great extremes, that
there are high schools in America with a larger population then Auroville,
and asked "why is it so hard for them to reach a decision"?
Indeed, this is a good question and the answer goes a long way in uncovering
the rather profound approach that comprises an 'Auroville decision'.
When Aurovilians are asked to make a decision one may feel as if one
is lost in a mirage of contradictions yet it is in the midst of these
varying perceptions that we are compelled to unmask ourselves, to untangle
the enigmatic puzzle of what we are and most importantly, push aside
the obstacles that bar our entrance to the promise of Auroville's fulfillment.
The dominant impetus behind this process of decision making itself,
is the forging of the foundations
of a 'human unity' in Auroville. Using the above quote from Sri Aurobindo
metaphorically, Aurovilians continually juggle these three perspectives
simultaneously, when approaching what, one day, might become a kind
of decision. The problems arising in reaching a decision, within the
context of this triple view of things and multiplied by 1500 Aurovilians
can be, to say the least, a most exasperating of experiences, yet our
seeking is indomitable.
An overwhelmingly potent and complex experience
There are so many complex elements to our living
experience in Auroville which lay, beneath the surface appearances,
subterfuge to our best intentions, that often strains
our collective decision making process that are difficult to
put into words. How, for example, can one explain to
those who do not live in Auroville, or in India for that matter,
what it means to live in Auroville through the months of April, May
and June, when the Sun rises, full blast, as if some one had opened
a furnace portal, the air itself so hot that one breaks into a sweat
simply by writing on one's computer, the effort to move one's fingers
can be that strenuous. Or
the kind of 'actualities' we contend with, may very well be defined
by which side of the Financial Service desk you may be sitting. It is
foolish to try and describe the full breath of the overwhelmingly potent
experience it is to live in Auroville as it is to try and define exactly
what goes into, what may seem, as a 'simple' decision. The fact is nothing
in Auroville is resolved superficially.
Auroville Consciousness & Aurovilian consciousness
But beyond these kinds of considerations there is
the even wider range of perspectives, what Sri Aurobindo refers to as
the 'Supreme Vision', which despite its abstract definition is a perception
available to every Aurovilians' inner sense.
Perhaps it would be simpler to say, that we are not making a
decision as such, but rather we going through a process in which we
change the relationship between Auroville Consciousness and Aurovilian
One feels at times, that a decision could be reached
more effectively by simply going to the Chamber and quieting oneself,
and in the most profound sense of the word, merge in Silence. Often
we are pressed to acknowledge that as Aurovilians we are asked to purge
ourselves of our limitations, purifying our intentions, becoming transparent
and profoundly reflective and then only can we touch upon the truth
that lays behind decisions we are asked to make.
The very integrity of what it means to be an Aurovilian
is almost as if we are walking on an imperceptibly delicate path along
a journey that in the end will lead to Auroville itself, and it is not
so much about this or that decision that is being sought after but rather
how we reach our destination that is most important. One thing is certain,
nothing that is meaningful can be obtained casually, and the journey
we have accepted to follow is a most extraordinary passage one may embark
upon and this places demands upon the very integrity of what it means
to be an Aurovilian.